P.3 - The Gallows

Searching high and low, yet answers are yet to be found.
Hope the day would come, a love once so profound.
Answers so vague, lies I never made,
Just wish that, my emotions I need not fake.

Love was all, love will always be,
A journey of life, for you and me,
Our story, the world will see,
Love you I will, for all eternity.

I love you, more than life,
I love you, beyond my knowing,
We're in love, let is strive,
Because you, I know is worth giving.

Dreams aplenty, with you in the middle,
Every night, you I will cuddle,
Never felt love, as much from within,
The one love, this life I have not seen.

Prayers are made, love dont wither,
Loving you, like I have for no other,
Till the end of humanity,
Till the end, of eternity.

Making each second count.....

Back again from the depths of silence I come,
Cause a journey of life, the track I run,
Lots to do, time is of little sum,
My dreams to hit, with my beloved one.

Yes, I'm actually 23. Twenty-three-years-old.....

Thats roughly living on this world, breathing, for about approximately 725,328,000 seconds.....
And that's alot..

I dont know. Say that I'm thinking too much of say that my dreams are too big.
Tell me that I'm building castles in the air, and that i'm much of a money-minded person.
But deep inside, i believe the real reason counts....

Koh Samui 2012 - Nova Samui Resort

True, I've found new love.... I've found new joy.... I've found new hope.

We may be but distances apart, we may even be but mindsets apart. But as the heart beats, it'll beat as one. Honestly I never thought I would come to love ever again..... I really never thought about it, yet, as though as it was God's divine plan, love knocked at my door once more.....

Before, it was love which got me crazy. It was love which got me to rebel......

Yet once more, love once more... Nullified my acidity, brought me back to neutrality......

A girl which I never thought I would ever be with, in my wildest of wildest dreams..... The girl which I had one of the greatest crush during secondary school, would actually end up being with me, in my arms.

Well, I guess I've intro-ed my love to my blog, its time to talk about, dreams.

Yes, dreams..... My dreams, they are simple, yet they are complex. A dream which is easily grasped, yet hard to obtain. A dream for my loved ones, yet also a dream for my personal self.....

I believe it is all men's wants and needs to want to have a life of serenity. As for me, I want a life of peace, of serenity, of tranquility. I hate the busy life of the world. I hate the tiredness of working like a mad dog. I hate being pressured by people so that I can do my job so that THEIR company gets all the income..... Now we all know why I dont really fancy an indoor job but stick to sales?

Anyway, back to the point.....

Im thinking alot lately.... A hell lot.... Thinking thoughts which a 23-yr-old guy would not usually think. Now, im not saying that i'm the unique 23-yr old, but then, how many of my age with such mindsets? Nay, not many....

You all wonder why I commit so much.... Why I work so much, why I work so hard, why i take up so many 'bags'? Now lets see....
I have Coppertech, tuitions, HLA, and a soon-to-be-inforced business with my partner.....

Its simple. I can survive just nicely with just my Sales job from Coppertech. Like hell seriously, the pay is almost RM 3,000 a month, why cant i survive well?

No..... I wanna go further, I wanna dream bigger, I wanna push as hard as I can....
I wanna break my limits.....

My girl's gonna finish her dentistry studies in roughly 08 months time.... And I pray pray pray pray pray that she'll be relocated back to KL..... I guess in 8 months time, I would have enough of my parting in LDRs, that would be the limit i suppose...... But i must always, be prepared for the worst~

In 08 months time, would I be financially stable? Would I be mentally fit to take care of her? Would I be emotionally strong to be her pillar of hope, of joy, of love? Lastly, would I be fit, to take care of her the rest of my life?? Yeah, call me an idiot for rushing things..... But heck no.... I want to plan for my future, I want to live life that I'll never regret. I dont want to live a life which i have to work 8am-9pm every fucking day.... I wanna live a life that I'm able to see my girl from dawn till sunset.... And not worry about finance!

Every second of the clock is ticking.... Even as I type my thoughts into this blog, time counts, each second counts.... I need to buy a house before she graduates, buy a car before she graduates.... She deserves my best, for if not, who else does?

Honestly, I dont really feel 23 at all..... A 23 yo guy usually wouldnt wanna commit into a relationship early, neither does he plan for his another 23yrs ahead of him..... Mock me in any way possible, but only results will justify actions. And actions justify thoughts....

Probably I'm just too stressed right now, that I need to tell someone without knowing who the someone is.... Lol~ Complicated i know~

Anyway, the best part about it?? My girl doesnt know about my blog's existence, neither does she know about my diary. Lol~

I just wonder....Would I be able to live up to my dreams???

~P.2~ The Lady in The Tiger-Blouse

It was once upon in time,

That a day came which was so fine,

I found you again, one a page called Facebook,

And when we talked, somehow I knew you could cook.

I grew some balls, to ask for your number,

Asked you out once, but you were quite slumber.

Little did I knew, my call you'd return,

Less did I know, wanting to see me was your turn.

Missed two chances, but never the third,

The first night we met, the feeling wasn't weird.

We found favor, in each other's eyes,

We found love, was so hard for the first good-bye.

You left, but returned 45 minutes later,

Back to the place, we were getting sober,

Seeing you once more, brought me on spirits high,

Stayed a little you did, and again I'd sigh.

You returned, on that very first day.

Met up, danced, and loved at the stairway,

And like a phantom you left, on the very next dawn,

While I was asleep, and while I yawn.

That day we had, will be our first night,

Till this very day, you are my beloved sight.

This fire of love, even the sea cannot douse,

You are, my Lady in the Tiger-Blouse.

© Wu Ji-Reh

Yeah, as long as its with you....

J.Y.K.Y~~ <3 ^_^

~P.1~ Mistakes

Mistakes aplenty, I am convicted,
Mistakes too much, I have committed.
The crimes of the past, the penalty is a must,
For whats done is done, yet, many more to come.


Mistakes happens, but one too much,
All that matters, is the repercussions of such.
Who am I, but just a man,
To fix it, I'll do whatever I can.


Mistake back in time, the past was just fine,
Chance to wine and dine, but I was just blind.
Easy at it seems, for one to blend,
Hard as hell it'll be, for one to mend.


Mistake it was, on that jolly good day,
Just a question, the friendship could sway,
Regret I have, but what have I to say,
Time has passed, you went on your own way.


Mistakes mistakes mistakes, 
Why in my life did you have to partake?
Cant you just go, go bake some pancake,
That I've to live thru, this unacceptable fate.


©Wu Ji-Reh ^^

My promise to you....

Never expected that to you I'll give,

My heart, my love, my everything to thee,

All that's left, is awaiting thy return,

To seal the deal, that was never thought possible.

The art of trust, my words you can believe,

The art of love, my actions you can see,

The art of lust, my thoughts you can read,

But all in all, you, are all I need.

Time has passed, 10 years to date,

Still quite unbelieving, that you're my mate,

The queue to you, is far beyond my reach,

But I've caught you, and I wont let anyone breach.

Thus said, I am but a penniless man,

But still you said, "Dont worry, you still can."

What matters ain't about dollars or cents,

But true love, and what our love represents.

And now, together we are one,

Only to you and to you I'll run,

This promise I'll make to you when I'm young,

And when I make it, I'll get all of them done. 

My promise, to thee : 

"One day, I'll make my truckloads of money.... And by that time,

I'll bring you dinner on the Eiffel Tower,

Dance around the Sydney Harbour, 

Road trip to the Grand Canyon,

Play with water and sand at the Maldives and Tahiti,

Visit the city of Bahamas,

And swim with you in the Caribbean, in my own personal yacht. =))

*And that's my promise* ^_^"

Lotsa love,

J.Y.K.Y~ ^^

*A promise a guy makes, A promise a guy must do.*

Another song, singing it to you.

Love,
The question of trust,
The question of loyalty,
The question of commitment.

The giving in love, is never-ending,
The receiving in love, is unexpecting,
But most important is our love's direction,
That love can be given, without any hesitation.

After so long, we're finally one,
Its so complicated, but yet its fun,
Our journey together, has just begun,
And hand-in-hand, this race we'll run.

Though unofficial as many may say,
But who cares, its just about us anyway,
Baby, together, lets make our love strong and stay,
That togetherness, we always may.

People compliment, what an item we are,
That none object, an understanding too far,
Our best time, loving in the car,
Hell yeah, our love is just too bizarre!!!

You fit my every expectation,
Short, cute, pretty with all perfection,
I'm swooped away, in every direction,
When you give so much, without any rejection.

A girl like you, I thought never existed,
But your presence, caught me off-guarded,
Should I ever leave, you unsafe-guarded,
Then I am nothing else, but plain retarded.

You and me, we're just so damn happy,
Every union, the air's just so merry,
Your love, sweeter than the tropical berry,
Hell yeah, we both wanna marry.

What is time, but just a measurement,
What is age, but just a predicament,
Why bother about people and restrictions,
When all matters is love, and our sole commitments.

Twice in love, we both have fallen,
Finally together, this is not mistaken,
Together we'll defeat 'them' with full aggression,
That love, You, I will never abandon.

-Dedicated to J.Y.K.Y-
Copyright  © March 2012 Josiah Wu =P

From the Depths, I return.

"From the depths, I return,

From the failures, I discern,

Rising again from the ashes,

Devouring in my way all whom trespasses.

Time is now, reborn once again,

Growing from scratches, my life remain,

The old ways no longer affects my vein,

The new way, I shall not put to pain."

Well, back again to the arena of blogging.
Been a long time since Christmas-ey, time for sorrow, time for joy, time for pain, time for healing, time for hatred, time for love.

You know, seriously speaking, I never thought in my life that I would be able to endure the 'shit' that I've been put thru...
Never thought for a split second that I would come across someone better....
Never thought at all that I would fall back in love again, after what happened....
Never thought that the one, would be a 'childhood-love'....

Truly, its amazing how the Creator works.....
Lets see.... How this story goes......


It was way back in August 2011, that I actually asked you out.... To a club. Now now, would a girl meet up with a guy whom she knoweth not much in familiarity in a club with his friends? Then again, you agreed and we actually met up..... *Miracle!*

Well, that aside, we were both pretty sober during our first reconciliation, but ended up ending the night with the best of all.... Holding you by the stairway, communicating to you not via word-to-word by tongue-to-tongue. You are the only girl, I ever kissed in a club..... And you shall remain the only girl to do so.

True enough, that did send sparks flying like crazy.... Less for you, more for me, or vice versa, it doesnt matters.... What matters is that, a part of me is in you, and a part of you is in me..... But sadly, back you go to Kedah the very next day.... ZzzzZzzzz.....

Well, progression remains slow and steady, growing in love and in 'misses', strengthening the bonds between both sexes, and honestly..... Its like the very best damn thing that's happening in my life.... You returning into my life.

Every minute you're back in KL, I'll fight for it till the very last breath, of course, giving ur family number one priority.... Blame me for being selfish and childish, but I kinda know what I'm fighting for, so its okay... ^^
To find out the truth, I told you that I once was head-over-heels for you in secondary school but I never talked to you..... And voila! Little did I know, that you were interested in me too, at that time....

This makes it the 2nd time that we actually have feelings for each other, logically speaking.

Time passes, our names changed from the 'originals' to uber-duper-sweet-words that can even melt the Antarctic, from being so far but feeling so near in the heart..... Good progression it was....

Till shit happened.

2 weeks of silence, 2 weeks of total silence.... But I guess that 'quiet' period was the period that the bonds actually grew stronger.... You cried because of me, you went crazy because of me.... And so did I.... Getting drunk 6 days in a row aint really me, cause with my ability to drink, i reckon i'll never get drunk at all.....
But its good silence i guess.... It was that silence.... That brought us back together, stronger than ever....

"In the stillness, we are one.

In the quiet, we're so much fun.

You belong to me, and me to you,

Trust me honey, my feelings are true."

That point of time, waiting 1 month for your next return was no problem at all.....
But now, even 10 days in itself is already taxing enough for me, for us.....
Well, its a good thing for distance, that you can focus on studying and me on my work....
Elsewise, HAYWIRE lor!!!! ><

For now, I only have 2 wishes in life....
1) To generate so much money that my loved ones can live a good life....
2) To make you, officially, MINE.

Well, I guess its enough said..... Just hope that in time, we'll be, fantastic.
Gonna compile all the little poems i wrote, that was and is dedicated to you....

"We never know what life will bring,

Never expected that this song we'll sing,

You aint never ever gonna be my fling,

Coz with you, I wanna sit this damn love swing."

"The appreciation of the living, far surpasses the dead,

What good will it bring, if love is all to fate,

Let love flourish, as it once was said,

That no matter what, Im gonna make you, my beloved mate."

"The everyday journey, one step ahead,

Doing what I can, keeping the words I've said,

Probably its consequences, the price I've paid,

But I'll wage 'war', till the day I'm dead."

"Acceptance is there, love we both yield,

Fear of losing you, from others thee I will shield,

Probably its trust, we both need to build, 

This outburst of love, I need to wield."

"The apple of my eye, the one to her I shy,

Loving you loads, but never knowing why,

Distance is alive, but honey lets giv'it a try,

Cause we'll never know, what time will bring us by."

"I cant sleep again, despite being so tired,

I wonder why, but is this how i'm wired?

Gosh I need help, this is getting way to dire,

And all I'm thinking of is you, my sweetest desire."

"Time to wait, time has pass,

Time of missing we have surpass,

Return ye shall soon back to me,

That togetherness that all may see.

Worth the wait, worth the given,

Nothing else matters, but the love receiven."

"You are home, back here again,

This time the love ain't be in vain,

Lets dance and dance under the rain,

Never again will I let u go thru pain."

"This weird feeling, of waiting,

This happy and unexplainable feeling, of wanting,

The indescribable feeling of expressing,

Shit, its been so long since I had this feeling!"

"No longer a want, you're a need,

No longer a fragment, but a part of me,

No longer a dream, now our destiny,

No longer infatuation, but in love....."

J.Y.K.Y....... Yes, you.
<3